how do you live with longing?
You don’t need to tell me.
It’s just that when I ask, I’m not sure any of us aren’t crippled by the answer, however private and quiet and dark we might want to keep it.
How do you live in the life between what you long for and what you are afraid you cannot accept?
I think it would be easier for you, my therapist tells me. If you knew, OK I’m going to be A or I am going to be B but the difficulty is you don’t know and you’re outside the alphabet.